Today I was driving for work and had one of those moments when I wondered; Am I the only one that does this?!
Sometimes when I am doing something I will picture something happening that is usually bad or a bit disturbing to say the least.
So for instance:
Today I was driving along the highway and a semi was coming and for a brief moment I pictured in my mind what I would feel like if all of sudden my car swerved in front of the semi and had a head on collision. I know! Sick really! It is unexplainable and before I even consciously realized what I was doing, my mind went to all those places~ like for that split second what would I be thinking and feeling!?
I can be driving and start to drive over a bridge and my mind will drift to the "what would it look like or feel like if my car veered and went over the side?" The though usually creeps in before I can consciously shut it out!
Usually about then I have significantly creeped myself out and will turn the radio on and distract my mind from wandering to such tragic places!
I can remember carrying Cohen and then Kadence, as babies, down the stairs and picturing myself tripping and falling all the way down.
I am sure there are more, but these are the vivid ones that come to mind right now!
I have recognized in myself that I "like" to try to put myself in someone else's shoes (and I know that no one can really fully do that) but I can go alot of places in my mind to help me understand what it could be like to be in someone else's situation, what it would feel like, look like, sound like, etc....which probably explains a bit about why I love the "job" that I have. (I use "job" loosely cause it really is a passion).
I am not sure.
Does that explain why my mind also puts myself in these mental visual scenarios that are a bit disturbing!?
Any therapists out there that want to take a shot at this one??
Saw this quote today and thought it went well with the political "fire" that is out there right now, no matter which side you stand on:
"If you resist reading what you disagree with, how will you ever acquire deeper insights into what you believe? The things most worth reading are precisely those that challenge our convictions." ~unknown