Tuesday, June 18, 2013

All hands on deck...summer bucket list revival time!

We come with beautiful secrets
We come with purposes written on our hearts, written on our souls.
We come to every new morning with possibilities only we can hold.
Redemption comes from strange places, small spaces
Calling out the best of who we are
I want to add to the beauty
To tell a better story........
*I do not know the author

I do not want my story to be:
get up...hustle bustle, work, pick up kids, hustle bustle, home, supper, hurry up play, bath, bed. Repeat.  
This is not the story I want.
This is not the "storybook childhood" that I want my kids to reminisce about some day.
When my kids are all grown I want something like the smell of fresh cut grass to take them back to a time and place of pure happiness, where memories come flooding back of "good times" traipsing  through a sprinkler in the front yard or of under doggies in the back yard.  I want them to be able to sit around after I am long gone and say "remember when...." which would then end in smiles and a lot of laughter!

So this is my story right.
This is my kids' story.
I am the author.
I am writing this story and I am going to try to add some new chapters again this summer.
We've been in survival mode thus far but it is time to shake things up a bit!
Change can be very hard, so I may not accomplish everything but change can also be invigorating....its go time baby!
You make me wanna roll my windows down and cruise...

1. Make smores over a camp fire.
2. Go jet skiing or at least get back on a tube behind a boat!
3. Trip to the zoo
4. Salt Dogs Game
5. Get to the pool once a week (That's setting the bar pretty high!)
6. "Jack-up" the swing set.
7. Throw a summer bash/bbq
8. Have spontaneous weekend get togethers (we did one! Whoop!)
9. Take the kids on a picnic (any good ideas on where?!)
10. Make homemade ice cream.
11.Find a summer dress that "works" (I may need back up on that one)
12. Surprise ambush water fight on the kids!

I feel compelled to maybe add or edit but I seem to lacking some mojo or something....
I need something with a lil more "bang"....
Maybe I need to start an adult bucket list and then a family bucket list!
If you read this you better leave a summer bucket list idea
I am so not above stealing someone else's idea!
*insert sly smile here*

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

'tis the season

I don't see myself as beautiful, because I can see a lot of flaws. People have really odd opinions. They tell me I'm skinny, as if that's supposed to make me happy.

It's that time of year.
You know the time...
the time when you are suppose to expose more of your mom body than any other time of the year.
Mother Nature was more than kind this year,
allowing me to wear cardigans and layers into June!
God Bless you Mother Nature!
Delaying the inevitable.
Tank tops.
Heck even t-shirts (no joke)!
Swim suits!
{collective moan}

Let's be honest its not like I ever had some rockin hot model body
but the three baby belly bulge...
lil not cool!

(Spare me the lectures on diet and exercise that's a whole other post! As well as the lectures on "you just had a baby give yourself time" Puh-lease! Tell that to the wet spandex clinging to my body! )

Any summer (not just this approaching one)
I have to gear up mentally.
A recent discussion got me back on the mental prep bandwagon!
I vowed after having Cohen that my kids would not miss out on summer fun
like swimming because of my insecurities.
When I think back to my childhood....
my parents were always the ones who got in the pool
and swam with us!
I can remember seeing other moms
just sitting on the side and thinking to myself
"how boring."
I vowed not to be that mom!

To this day....my parents still make the choice to
dive in
Moments captured at Leah's birthday party just last year!

Kudos to you mom and dad!
I am sure they could both make a long list of "valid" reasons why:
1. They don't swim
2. They do not do the diving board.

Instead they both continue to make the choice to say
I'm going to jump in!
Live this one crazy beautiful life I've been given.
Why not?!

Do you think someday when reminiscing my kids will care
what Grandma looked like in her swimsuit?
I highly doubt it!

I cannot ever once remember thinking...gee mom/dad should not wear that swimsuit, she/he should just sit on the side of the pool.

So that is where my mental summer prep begins...
when post belly bulge doubt creeps in
I say to myself...
will my kids remember the squishy tummy
under the suit
or the fact that you were the "the" mom that got in.

Sitting on the side in clothes that hide my insecurities,
hair and make up in tact...
that doesn't make memories.

In the happiest of our childhood memories, our parents were happy, too.  ~Robert Brault, www.robertbrault.com

Self talk
self talk
self talk

close your eyes and
....and jump in!

When in doubt, make a fool of yourself.  There is a microscopically thin line between being brilliantly creative and acting like the most gigantic idiot on earth.  So what the hell, leap.  ~Cynthia Heimel