falling slowly

“Isn't it the moment of most profound doubt that gives birth to new certainties? Perhaps hopelessness is the very soil that nourishes human hope; perhaps one could never find sense in life without first experiencing its absurdity...” ~Vaclav Havel





Lets hope that quote holds true.

Sometimes doubt creeps into my life.

When it makes it presence known, it is hard for me to move on.

Did I do what I should have? 

 Is it too late??

Was it enough? 

Did my selfishness overcome my intent?

Have I failed?

Can i go back? Do it again? Please?

When doubt creeps in it is quickly followed by guilt.

"should haves and could haves"

I am afraid that both have crept in to stay for awhile, to make home in my mind.

Creating thought upon thought to circle around and around.

Thoughts and questions to which there is no answer

That is what I hate the most.....

 I know rationally that wasting time and energy on things that I cannot go back and do over is pointless, yet those doubt and guilt filled thoughts creep in.....

leaving you wondering what if I had........

Stuck

dead still in your tracks

not moving forward and unable to go back.

Trapped.


“Doubt yourself and you doubt everything you see. Judge yourself and you see judges everywhere. But if you listen to the sound of your own voice, you can rise above doubt and judgment. And you can see forever.”  ~Nancy Lopez quotes


But to do that one must trust the voice within....
one must overcome the doubt
the guilt
and find the voice that will guide us forward.
and that is a daunting task.