Thursday, September 23, 2010

humbled. grateful. disbelief.

Someone to lean on when problems appear,
Someone on whom you’d depend.
Someone who’ll lift you when your down in the dumps,
That someone is truly a friend.
That’s how we feel about you my dear friend,
You’re so special just as you are.
Just to know that you’re there provides comfort to spare,
A friendship like yours sets the bar.
~Kal and Joanna Fuchs

I was reminded again today about the power of laughter and the power of tears and how sometimes the tears and laughter go hand and hand. I was reminded how much each of us need someone to listen. Someone to care. Someone to be there. I was feeling a bit recharged and maybe ready to tackle reality again.

As I headed home the “to do” list that I blocked out for a day is starting to filter its way back into my mind. I walk in and find this……..

That would be supper in the crock pot.....and a very clean kitchen!

No this is not how I left my house (and don’t kid yourself, this is never how I leave my house)

This is how I WISH I left my house!


Yup that's a cleaned out refrigerator.....{we don't see that much around here} Stocked with pizza!

That is the bottom of the laundry room laundry basket. I haven't seen the bottom of that in 4 years..not kidding. that's where the I don't know how to wash that or I don't know where I would put that kind of items go...and never return!
Certain that I am not worthy nor deserving of so much love.
 (short funny here. Mark says "good Friend pickin' honey!)

Life started to crumble a few weeks ago and by the end of last week things were tumbling down.

I am …

I am humbled.

I thought I was humbled after last friday....but now I am. .. I am almost in a state of shock. Disbelief

I was really wanting to get sucked into the “life sucks” mode…but my friends continue to refuse to let me go down without a fight. Last Friday my coworkers completly floored me with a very generous act and then this.

You know how you wake up on Monday morning and tell yourself “You can do this. It may look like a bad week, but really it’s just one week in time and it will be fine. Just get up and do it.” We all have those, right, the ones where all you have to do is open your schedule and your sighing before you start…….I told myself the kids love it at: Grandma’s/Linda’s/home with dad, where they will spend their evenings this week.

Another day rolls around and things start to pile, the self talking is loosing it’s power, and the mood starts to shift a bit more toward the “REALLY?!?” mode. Get home late (again) so again skip putting away any laundry that has been on the couch since Sunday and again skip scraping the dried watermelon off the dining room floor, under the table…again skip the neglected pile of things that have collected and grown so far, telling myself, this weekend. You can tackle it this weekend. Cut yourself a break….this weekend you can catch up around here. It’s okay.

You trade with yourself.
You rationalize.
You justify.
You survive.
Sometimes I just survive.

Then I just keep getting reminded how great life really is.
A couple “random” acts of kindness left me in tears more than once so far.
Is my week/life any different from a week that one of you had last week or the week before or last month?
Nah probably not.
Did I recognize it in you? As well as you have recognized it in me?
Oh I hope so….and if not I will look harder from now on!

We all have so much on our plates that it is amazing we get anything done!
We all have stress.
We all carry “burdens.”
We all do the best we can to find the balance between work and home…..
We all have beautiful secrets.

I realize my stress is no different than yours. I am humbled by the amount of the support I have seen in the last week. I do not know what I have done to justify or deserve everything.
Tonight in sit here in awe.
I know not how to repay……..

That being said……I have an amazing family.

I am so blessed to work with amazing and caring people who are more than “coworkers.”

and am willing to bet all I own on the fact that I may have the worlds greatest friends.

People who “hide” their stress much better than I can. You are all such amazing people who inspire me to be a better person everyday! I cannot imagine being surrounded by a better group of people. 
Is there much greater gifts in life than to be surrouned by amazing family and friends?

Tonight I am humbled

May you be blessed this weekend with good times and happiness.

Sweet dreams……of better weeks ahead! =)


Tiff said...

It's because we love you.

Kim said...

WOW, what great friends you have!!!! Don't forget I'm always here for you :)

Lori Ann said...

Really Jen Any time! You don't have to go through life alone. We are always here for you. Remember that HE always gives us doors to open. So do it, when life gets you down, open that door and see what is on the other side. Friends, Family and of course complete strangers with arms open is what you will find because He never makes us do it alone. And yes, it is because we love you.

Kelsey said...

we loved to do something to help yu and to have that Beautiful smile on your face that we are use to not the stressed out Jen.. Enjoy and Remember the world would not be a fun time without great Friends and family and we sure have them both .. We love ya and we would do it again in a heartbeat!!

The Preister's said...

Jen, I think you have friends like that because that is the kind of friend you are! So, while I know you do love those friends for being so amazing...I have no doubt you would return that favor if they need you! you ARE blessed!!
(and major kudos to your friends...not everyone is so lucky!!)