go with it

Ironic (or not so) that a recent post was about balance and achieving it.

This week is more of an epic fail in the balance department.

In fact just typing that made me sing "you're up then your down, you're in then your out"

I am not ready to say farewell to summer.

We did not accomplish everything that I had hoped for this summer. 

No I am just not ready…so I am being dragged into fall kicking and screaming basically.

I have attempting to remain in denial but now denial has led to meltdown!

Although there is a part of me that knows I will merge into fall with ease soon.

I so love a new season and I love fall...but I have to have my "moment" first.

I know it is not feasible to maintain balance all the time.

That is part of this life's lesson.

I can know that but at the same time when life falls out of sync, when balance is out of whack,

it sucks. *sorry couldn't think of a better word!

The week is packed with obligations that I will never succeed in meeting, with the dynamics of this week, which leaves me feeling overwhelmed and a little sad at the sacrifice.  The details are irrelevant because its not the details but the feeling that is at play right now.

As I reflect back maybe the balance is in the fact that we had a great family weekend.

It was the kind of weekend that you dream of when you are expecting that first little baby and what “family” will be like. 

It was that good.  When its that "good" life is sure to be that "bad" at times too.

It is good to remember that the highs will come with the lows....

Bring on the rain because the sun is sure to shine again soon. *fingers crossed*

moment #1347

Every Friday is "Fun Friday!"

It isn't anything big.

It isn't expensive and crazy.

We just wake up and say "ITS FUN FRIDAY!"

and the kids jump up and down and clap!

On our way home we swing through and snag ourselves a little ice cream or otherwise not typical treat!

We drive home, eating our treats, chatting over the day and kicking off the weekend that is now upon us.

We love Fun Friday!

Today however there was a torrential down pour at the typical "pick up" time

so Fun Friday treats consisted of some cookies I had grabbed at the store earlier...

but in true Fun Friday Fashion they could eat as many as they wanted!

*little did they know I had already swung through and purchased my own frozen strawberry lemonade that I so sucked down before picking them up! *Gasp at the thought of sharing it!*

shhhh

Parenting moment #1347

Driving home we quickly left the rain storm behind us.

There is something wonderful about a rain storm but even something more beautiful about rainbows.

Tonight on our way home we witnessed one of the most spectacular rainbows ever.

It was so clear.

Cohen proceeds to tell me: Mom I just folded my hands and said a prayer to Jesus and Grandma Ella.

{When Grandma Ella died Cohen and I decided that whenever we saw a rainbow

that Grandma Ella was sitting right there on top, swinging her legs and waving at us}

So I was already like

"ahhh that's so sweet"

When he continues with "mom I have a Jesus song like this: *sung to an unrecognizable tune*

Jesus hold my hand and I will hold Grandma Ella's

and we can swing from the rainbow together

So right there in the middle of my "ahh" parenting moment

Kadence declares she has a song:

"mom my have song too"

Which goes like this:

Happy Birt-day Poo-py *insert crazy giggling here*

In a desperate attempt to salvage the "ahh" moment

I (so stupidly) ask

Kadence why don't you sing a Jesus song

to which she replies

"my sing a Jesus song mom?!"

Yes kadence, sing a Jesus song...

Happy Birt-day poo-py Jesus

*again inserting the crazy giggling here*

Yup Happy Fun Friday.

It's not perfect,

but it's mine.

Ahhh

The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own.

No apologies or excuses.

No one to lean on, rely on, or blame.

The gift is yours - it is an amazing journey -

and you alone are responsible for the quality of it.

This is the day your life really begins. ~Bob Moawad

*all photos were not taken by me(georgous rainbows!) 

but the flooding picture really was from Columbus today*

kissed by the sun each morning

Today, as with most days, I find myself torn between two me's.

There is a part of me that is 21st Century Woman. 

I want independence.

I want to make my own decisions.

I want to work. I want to contribute.

I want to travel (which we so don't) but I have aspirations!

I want to learn. I want to grow.

I want..well I want it all and more (hence the 21st century woman thing)!

Then there is this part of me that is so 50's classic stay at home mom. 

Great apron find at tj max

I want to make homemade bread and pies.

I want to greet my kids at the door with homemade cookies and milk after school.

I want to find my sense of self and pride in maintaining a home and children.

I want my husband to be a fix it all.

I want to be taken care of.

There are times when inevitably those two sides of me clash, and I find myself longing for more.

But not lately.

Lately they live in harmony.

And life is good.

Makes me ready for fall and pie baking and bread making!

Oh I can almost smell fall...

almost....

just a little bit more summer to soak up first.

I have been blessed.
(not always perfect or happy for that matter, sometimes it's down right nasty,
but blessed all the same with the possiblities that life offers!)

Soak it up people!