Flip the switch

I just want to sit here.
In silence
Not fold laundry
Not vacuum
Not sweep
Not mop
Not wash dishes
Not trip over toys
Not hate my outdated kitchen
Not listen to whining
Not figure out a daycare plan because she is closed for a week
Not check homework
Not read books
Not watch, yet another, round off/cart wheel
Not feel guilty for not watching, yet another, round off/cart wheel
Not schedule work
Not type something "quick"
Not figure out who will pick up kids tomorrow,
Not remember who goes where and why and when
Not make a never ending to do list for work
....and then start a never ending to do list for home
Nothing.
I want to sit here and shut it all off.
I just want to sit here
in mental silence.

but I can't.